I used to sleep like clockwork. No problem. Every night I’d be asleep by around midnight and sleep until my alarm clock went off. Lately I feel like there are so many things on my mind that I can never fall asleep right away. Nor even think about going to sleep right away. The things on my mind aren’t necessarily bad, or good. They’re just stuff. Ponders. What will the world be like in ten years? I also find that with all the modern technology and social networking, it’s impossible to keep my thoughts to myself. Well, some of them I can’t keep to myself.
I wake up in the middle of the night and start thinking or working on a new photo project. Sometimes I even conceive them in the middle of the night. Why is this? Is it because during the day I’m so flooded with the average concerns that the middle of the night is the only time I can really think about things I want to think about. This sucks.
I have several projects in the works that I want to do. Yet I can never focus on just one of them. Right now I’m focusing on one that is not my concept at all, but a job I’m doing for someone. I’m not of professional status so I’m happy to get any work I can. How can I get better? How can I get more motivated? Time? Practice? Life? Is that all it is?
I’m just going to continue to do what I’m doing now, because so far it hasn’t steered me in a completely wrong direction. I’m hopeful for a bright future. A successful future. But for now, I consider a day spent being constructive, being creative, and being the best person I know how to be…a perfect day.