Awake with the light on at midnight

I just wanna lie here on my bed. It’s been a long time since I’ve done that. If I’m not asleep by now I’m well on my way. I turn on a mindless episode of a show I’ve seen a hundred times, to block out the noise in my head. I do this so that I can just fall asleep, fall asleep and forget about the day and move on to tomorrow. Because who knows what tomorrow will bring… That’s always my motto. But sometimes it brings shit, and sometimes it’s just mundane. But for once, I want to just lie here and think about the day and think about all that happened. And whatever else pops in my head. I want to not stress myself out over waking up on time for work, or moving my car, or making some phone call. I want to lie here until I actually feel like going to sleep, and not a minute sooner do I want to close my eyes. In seven hours I need to wake up, I need to call a bank, go to a DMV, do the dishes I left in my sink, send some emails, put on work clothes and drive across town to spend 8 hours serving people food. But I don’t need to do any of that right now. And I don’t even need to blog.

Right now… I just wanna lie here.